Patô

[if you don't have a dog, might as well skip this post. you won't understand.]

my dog died this morning.
i stayed up holding her and she died in my arms.
i felt her life ebb.

i've been crying since.

i was planning on writing several anecdotes about her to turn this entry into something cathartic, and so that you can see why i love her and how much i love her but her death's reduced me to this grieving pile of tissue and tears.

she was this spitz-shepherd mix, she looked like a wolf, hardly cuddly-cute.
most of my friends were scared of her but she was the gentlest.



i dont know how long i'll be sad. i havent' been this sad in years but
i'd rather go through all the heartbreak i went through the past decade AGAIN than be this hurt now.

10 years we were together.
she saw me through turning points, bad fashion and horrendous men.

i was planning on bringing her with me to dumaguete, dammit.
she would have loved siliman.
i was just brave enough to decide on moving because my dog was coming with me.
i didnt care if i had to go through a ton of paperwork.
pato was my non-negotiable.
leave everything behind except my dog.

now i don't even want to go.

i'll miss her.
good bye bebidog.
i love you.


[iza, ge-ann, duckee, mark, jojo and pet, thanks. i'll be okay.]

i need a tub of chef tony's popcorn

aarrrgh!

don't you just hate it when people (feign concern and) tell you 'okay lang yan?'
of course it's not okay. kaya nga i'm stressing eh! like THE!

pakain kita sa buwaya eh.

anniversary ni 'ge at ni kiko ngayon

31 years ago today, my mom married my dad.

and 31 years after, he still holds the door open for her.
and her hand.

"vera, tu as grossi."

yes i did.
over the weekend too, thank you very much :p
i put the EAT in feat.
i think i should swear off buffets for the rest of the year.
the sushi buffet in ebisu was fine but the lunch buffet at alba?
bless me father for i have sinned! glutton-ton gutierrez!

i'll visualize na lang that scene from se7en para hindi na ako kakain mashado.
boo!

lovett

"Je pense que nous devrions voirs d'autres personnes. Moi même j'en vois depuis trois moins."

HAHAHAHAHAHA!
shet.

being obnoxious in another language is fun.