tagged by kookie

rules: post 10 things that recently made you happy then tag 10 people and force them to post this on their blogs.

1. *see previous post*
2. home cooked dinner - love in my tummy
3. bronzers and bronzing lotions
4. peanut butter ice cream
5. coffee
6. deep dish pizza
7. usb cables
8. pictures
9. caramel scented body wash, shampoo and conditioner
10. sharing a bar of dark chocolate with mommy and daddy and laughing at nothing. crazy.

no tag.

can't grieve, will write.

i still have three deaths in me that i haven't grieved for properly, i haven't mourned for my grandparents yet the way they deserve to be mourned for.

and now, within weeks of each other, we lost two uncles and the family i heartbroken.

a few days after my uncle joel's death is talked with my dad and asked him if he was okay. we're both firstborn so is understand the panaganay syndrome.

"time for tears later?"
"yes."

what do you know? i am my father's daughter.

i try to be the shoulder my cousins can lean on, the hand they can hold.

i'm just scared that postponing my own mourning to give way to theirs -- and to the everyday -- will saturate my being with unshed tears.

i'll be a very very salty person.

saline. saline dion.

I wanted an eagle

instead I got a hornbill hahaha



they're supposed to be carnivorous but we only feed it (diced) apples, green peas and sometimes, dog food hahahaha!
lovett!

Sabel and Greggy, 3-on-3

GREGGY, the Oktomat
SABEL, the Holga

PERSEPOLIS

Of graphic novels adapted to screen, this is more to my liking.
It's smart, clean, in-your-face, serious but made me laugh a lot, unexpectedly.
It's grim and absurd but funny.



to-date, one of my best serendipitous dvd finds.

reason #37 why i heart the sunken garden at dusk

center of my universe

you used to be the best part of everyday.
i was defined by your existence in my life.

i am slowly easing into my new role: me without you.
i am not sad, bitter, or numb.
i'm just tired.

and a little empty.
you were a big part of my life.

i used to know everything about you. when people ask, i always had an answer. now i dont know where you are, because you are not with me.

it feels alien, you not here.

i will miss you. i promise.