“In all things it is better to hope than to despair.”
~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

On Your Own

I said yes because I'm a self-indulgent little shit, and I'm taking that yes back because I'm a self-indulgent little shit.

Calatagan

Went to Batangas with the team after cancelling Galera because of the malabo weather.


The whole day was pretty crazy since we were only staying for a night. We got there just in time for lunch and I did fast-break baking right here:

medyo successful naman harhar

had to do some errands though so we went back to town to buy booze and the nakakalokang gwyneth's lechon manok. sarap ng suka. ininom ko lang naman :p


anyhoo, driving back to the resort, nag mukha kaming nasa 30 days of night, hurrying back to catch the sunset. you know, for ehehe picture-picture.


i took shots from the car

we were racing to the lighthouse kasi feel namin na maganda ang sunset from there but the lighthouse was gated and it was closed so boo! bye sunset pics :(

but guess what i saw to my right:


yay! how pretty!!!!

there's a clearing by the lighthouse so we hopped into the car to take better pictures. presenting, the sunset in a secret cove in calatagan:

how lucky were we?


now this was totally serendipitous. the guys left at the resort said there was no sunset. instead they saw this:

a tornado. ayus. but you know what, i'm thinking that's my sundo. on may 9, the mayor of blue springs declared the day to be david cook day and kansas joined as well.


obviously, toto and i never made it to kansas :p


i clicked my heels together three times too soon. plus, i wasn't wearing my ruby red slippers. *raises clenched fists to heaven* curses! white flipflops boo!


anyway, back to the pretty sunset ... so beautiful no? and without photoshop help too. i'm not recommending that you try to go to the lighthouse and the clearing leading to the cliff where we caught mother nature's gift. we put a whole new meaning to braving the elements. the effing clearing was blairwitch scary ... but that's another blog entry.

tagged by kookie

rules: post 10 things that recently made you happy then tag 10 people and force them to post this on their blogs.

1. *see previous post*
2. home cooked dinner - love in my tummy
3. bronzers and bronzing lotions
4. peanut butter ice cream
5. coffee
6. deep dish pizza
7. usb cables
8. pictures
9. caramel scented body wash, shampoo and conditioner
10. sharing a bar of dark chocolate with mommy and daddy and laughing at nothing. crazy.

no tag.

can't grieve, will write.

i still have three deaths in me that i haven't grieved for properly, i haven't mourned for my grandparents yet the way they deserve to be mourned for.

and now, within weeks of each other, we lost two uncles and the family i heartbroken.

a few days after my uncle joel's death is talked with my dad and asked him if he was okay. we're both firstborn so is understand the panaganay syndrome.

"time for tears later?"
"yes."

what do you know? i am my father's daughter.

i try to be the shoulder my cousins can lean on, the hand they can hold.

i'm just scared that postponing my own mourning to give way to theirs -- and to the everyday -- will saturate my being with unshed tears.

i'll be a very very salty person.

saline. saline dion.

I wanted an eagle

instead I got a hornbill hahaha



they're supposed to be carnivorous but we only feed it (diced) apples, green peas and sometimes, dog food hahahaha!
lovett!