a couple of weeks ago i was ready to hunt someone some eighty five hundred miles away down, poke her eyes out and scalp her :p
buti na lang i forgot about it because i got distracted by my excitement. i was "boracay, yay!" for awhile.
and now although i'm still looking forward to it, i'm not as giddy so the green-eyed monster had a chance to rear its ugly head and say "hi."
and i said hi back.
now we want to kill her.
death to her and to her haliparot ways.
i just wish that ADD kicks in soon para i'll think about something else na lang, like work.
in the interim, i'm sending evil thoughts across the pacific. i hope she spontaneously combusts.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
pandora's box
last night i found out stuff that would have mattered had i learned of them when i needed to... like 10 years ago! :p
village friends+alcohol(lots and lots of it)=revelations galore.
ex.
"why'd you break up?"
"coz i didn't sense that he loved me. couldn't see/ feel/hear that he did."
"he did. you were everthing. everyday he'd tell me."
"but not me. i had no idea."
i can't even bring myself to regret.
i kind of feel sorry for the relationship but i'm at a point in my life where i'm absurdly steady that it armoured me from the potential pain and confusion i would have felt had i found out about these things in a different time.
life's like that. i hope he's well.
village friends+alcohol(lots and lots of it)=revelations galore.
ex.
"why'd you break up?"
"coz i didn't sense that he loved me. couldn't see/ feel/hear that he did."
"he did. you were everthing. everyday he'd tell me."
"but not me. i had no idea."
i can't even bring myself to regret.
i kind of feel sorry for the relationship but i'm at a point in my life where i'm absurdly steady that it armoured me from the potential pain and confusion i would have felt had i found out about these things in a different time.
life's like that. i hope he's well.
Monday, January 14, 2008
back to work
it says 7:02pm sa clock ng laptop and i can't wait for it to be 8:00pm so i can start getting ready for work.
i've been sick for almost a week, and was just well enough yesterday to go traipsing about the metro. for the pat few days, my little engine that could, well, couldn't.
sucky yes, lalo na if you're energizer bunny me who can last ng almost 48 hours without sleep and in heels ha?
but yep, i'm raring to go to work. it's monday so it's reports day harhar.
but i'm pretty sure we'll be spending the first few hours catching up.
i missed team starbucks :p
---
let's answer the UP centennial meme first:
1. Student number?
95-25336 hahaha
2. College?
CSSP
3. Course?
Philosophy
4. Did you shift or get kicked out?
nope.
5. Where'd you take the UPCAT?
Bio Pav hahaha iskeri.
6. Favorite GE subject?
PI 100, where you can get a 1.0 if you can outdrink your teacher hahahaha shh. I wont tell who.
7. Favorite PE?
Ice Skating -- nuninu
8. Where'd you do guy/girl watching?
AS Lobby
9. Favorite professor(s)
SV Epistola (+) who introduced me to Buddhism
Paolo Manalo who made our class write about our Oblation run experience which Darra and I planned to fake (because we had no intention of watching fat naked strangers parade their weiners) but the Unverse had other plans
Wendell Capili because he forgave us (Darra and I) for being late on the first day, among other things :p
10. Most hated GE courses?
STS! Pointless!
11. Did you take Wednesday or Saturday courses?
Had to -- Majors.
12. Did you go on field trips?
Everyday kahit hindi required :p
13. Did you ever become College Scholar or University Scholar?
ALmost but I dropped a subject so underload blah blah.
14. What were your organisations/fraternities/sororities?
AIESEC only. I'm baduy eh.
15. Where do you hang out?
AS Lobby --- far away from the AEISEC tambayan sa attic ng BA
16. Dorm, boarding house, or staying at home?
I live two kendengs and a kandirit away from UP so, dorm. hahaha. Joke. Home
17. If there was no UPCAT and you were free to choose your course, what would it be (given your mental state during high school)?
Philosophy pa rin. I dreamt of beoming a Pink Sister :p
18. Who was the first student you met in UP?
Na non- Paulinian?
Si Donny Dingcong. He was the nicest, and we became fast friends.
and then there's this guy whose name I vaguely remember, Buji? Basta I call him 4-J kasi that was his section sa Ateneo. I think it was Chiquit who introduced us and I zoned out when I saw his lashes. They were incredibly long! Everytime I'd see him I'd go "4-J!!!!" and that went on all-throughout college :p
19. First play that you saw in UP?
I don't remember ever watching a play. there was enough drama between our bench and the soccer bench eh. Drama!
20. What were the 5 most coño orgs.
Babaylan :p
21. What were the coolest organisations/fraternities/sororities?
I don't knw... but I was always envious of the people sa fine arts. they could doodle everywhere.
22. Was there a fraternity/sorority that recruited you?
they tried :p
23. Where'd you have lunch usually?
Darra's, Marco's, my place, Mang Jimmy's, SR Thai, sa Ateneo,Manang's and sa Caf (yes, nang i-invade ako ng school).
24. Were you happy in UP?
Yes, kahit ma drama :p
25. Were you ever part of a rally?
No. Rumble, oo hahaaha
26. How many times did you vote during the student council elections?
Once, when my friend Jeboy ran for well, something.
27. Name at least 5 leftist groups in UP.
I have no idea.
28. Did you ever wish for laude status when you were a freshman?
No.
29. Who did you have the hots for?
Jusko! Mike Templo and Joma Marquez hahaha.
30. If you failed the UPCAT what was Plan B?
I wasn't planning on passing. UP was Plan B :p
okay, 7:41pm na. wrap it up vera.
see you whenever :)
i've been sick for almost a week, and was just well enough yesterday to go traipsing about the metro. for the pat few days, my little engine that could, well, couldn't.
sucky yes, lalo na if you're energizer bunny me who can last ng almost 48 hours without sleep and in heels ha?
but yep, i'm raring to go to work. it's monday so it's reports day harhar.
but i'm pretty sure we'll be spending the first few hours catching up.
i missed team starbucks :p
---
let's answer the UP centennial meme first:
1. Student number?
95-25336 hahaha
2. College?
CSSP
3. Course?
Philosophy
4. Did you shift or get kicked out?
nope.
5. Where'd you take the UPCAT?
Bio Pav hahaha iskeri.
6. Favorite GE subject?
PI 100, where you can get a 1.0 if you can outdrink your teacher hahahaha shh. I wont tell who.
7. Favorite PE?
Ice Skating -- nuninu
8. Where'd you do guy/girl watching?
AS Lobby
9. Favorite professor(s)
SV Epistola (+) who introduced me to Buddhism
Paolo Manalo who made our class write about our Oblation run experience which Darra and I planned to fake (because we had no intention of watching fat naked strangers parade their weiners) but the Unverse had other plans
Wendell Capili because he forgave us (Darra and I) for being late on the first day, among other things :p
10. Most hated GE courses?
STS! Pointless!
11. Did you take Wednesday or Saturday courses?
Had to -- Majors.
12. Did you go on field trips?
Everyday kahit hindi required :p
13. Did you ever become College Scholar or University Scholar?
ALmost but I dropped a subject so underload blah blah.
14. What were your organisations/fraternities/sororities?
AIESEC only. I'm baduy eh.
15. Where do you hang out?
AS Lobby --- far away from the AEISEC tambayan sa attic ng BA
16. Dorm, boarding house, or staying at home?
I live two kendengs and a kandirit away from UP so, dorm. hahaha. Joke. Home
17. If there was no UPCAT and you were free to choose your course, what would it be (given your mental state during high school)?
Philosophy pa rin. I dreamt of beoming a Pink Sister :p
18. Who was the first student you met in UP?
Na non- Paulinian?
Si Donny Dingcong. He was the nicest, and we became fast friends.
and then there's this guy whose name I vaguely remember, Buji? Basta I call him 4-J kasi that was his section sa Ateneo. I think it was Chiquit who introduced us and I zoned out when I saw his lashes. They were incredibly long! Everytime I'd see him I'd go "4-J!!!!" and that went on all-throughout college :p
19. First play that you saw in UP?
I don't remember ever watching a play. there was enough drama between our bench and the soccer bench eh. Drama!
20. What were the 5 most coño orgs.
Babaylan :p
21. What were the coolest organisations/fraternities/sororities?
I don't knw... but I was always envious of the people sa fine arts. they could doodle everywhere.
22. Was there a fraternity/sorority that recruited you?
they tried :p
23. Where'd you have lunch usually?
Darra's, Marco's, my place, Mang Jimmy's, SR Thai, sa Ateneo,Manang's and sa Caf (yes, nang i-invade ako ng school).
24. Were you happy in UP?
Yes, kahit ma drama :p
25. Were you ever part of a rally?
No. Rumble, oo hahaaha
26. How many times did you vote during the student council elections?
Once, when my friend Jeboy ran for well, something.
27. Name at least 5 leftist groups in UP.
I have no idea.
28. Did you ever wish for laude status when you were a freshman?
No.
29. Who did you have the hots for?
Jusko! Mike Templo and Joma Marquez hahaha.
30. If you failed the UPCAT what was Plan B?
I wasn't planning on passing. UP was Plan B :p
okay, 7:41pm na. wrap it up vera.
see you whenever :)
Sunday, January 13, 2008
double date
me and sabel
ice and dee-dee, ice's diana +
woot!!
girl on girl action, yeah?
harhar.
we initially planned to go to UP but i swear the minute we parked the car, it started to rain.
nge. we were both excited pa naman.
ice: so san tayo?
vera: doesn't matter really. ako okay lang dito kaya lang ikaw, mauulanan ka.
(ang weird ng hirit ko no? as if hindi ako mauulanan and ako pa yung galing sakit.)
anyhoo, since parehas kami di mapakali, we set forth and ended up here:
ang lapit no? :p
i didn't finish my roll though. nge diba?
ice and dee-dee, ice's diana +
woot!!
girl on girl action, yeah?
harhar.
we initially planned to go to UP but i swear the minute we parked the car, it started to rain.
nge. we were both excited pa naman.
ice: so san tayo?
vera: doesn't matter really. ako okay lang dito kaya lang ikaw, mauulanan ka.
(ang weird ng hirit ko no? as if hindi ako mauulanan and ako pa yung galing sakit.)
anyhoo, since parehas kami di mapakali, we set forth and ended up here:
ang lapit no? :p
i didn't finish my roll though. nge diba?
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
maybe i'm not as histrionic as i think i am.
it still makes me senti everytime someone sincerely tells me i've touched his/her life, that i've moved them in some way, or opened their eyes to new things.
i guess it was always enough na lang kasi for me to know that they have a place in my life, and that i would not -- and could not be the me i am now had it not been for them.
knowing that i have a place in their universe -- and not just them in mine -- makes me all emotera and iyakin and hiya and thankful and lucky and humbled and happy
basta seven million emotions cramped in my fist-sized heart (and you know how small my hands are.)
thank you, i love you and even if you stop, it will be a long time before i do, if at all.
i guess it was always enough na lang kasi for me to know that they have a place in my life, and that i would not -- and could not be the me i am now had it not been for them.
knowing that i have a place in their universe -- and not just them in mine -- makes me all emotera and iyakin and hiya and thankful and lucky and humbled and happy
basta seven million emotions cramped in my fist-sized heart (and you know how small my hands are.)
thank you, i love you and even if you stop, it will be a long time before i do, if at all.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
good start
no, GREAT start.
okay
now, sustain :)
---
I usually do this pre-Christas but (insert excuse here) so I'm doing it now :p
1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Have dinner with myself in PUBLIC.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
See previous post.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Ging, Cla, Audrey :)
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Pato.
5. What countries did you visit?
Divisoria :p parang India din sya.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
sleep!
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Apr 15 - hello, dolphins! ang dami nyo!
June 10 - my bebidog died
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
weeding
9. What was your biggest failure?
weeding
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
carpal tunnel of love! hahaha kidding!
nothing major. flu mga 4 times this year, fever, food poisoning hahaha
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Sabel!
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
mine. i can see now in black and white.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
ay nako. wag na. stalker yun eh. fan ko :p
14. Where did most of your money go?
i don't know.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
the dolphins. really. it was raining when we headed out to the sandbar and there was no sun so i was kind of resigned na but i'm favoured (hahahaha) so yun. yay!
and i'm forever thankful.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
a lot of old songs
Last Good Day of the Year - Cousteau
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? always happier
ii. thinner or fatter? same i guess. i maintained my fatness hahahaha
iii. richer or poorer? poorer but eh ano :p
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
rest and eat healthy
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
smoke.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i ate, saw friends and then slept because i had work in the evening.
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
yes, with dumaguete :)
23. How many one-night stands?
nuninu
n/a HAHAHAHAHA
24. What was your favorite TV program?
kitchen confidential, gossip girl, jake in progress
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope
26. What was the best book you read?
6 keys to buddhist living
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
ATB, 4 strings
28. What did you want and got?
vacation and promotion
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
shrek 3 hahaha
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i was late for a surprise birthday dinner hahaha i turned 30.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
um, 4 weeks in sardinia :p
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
swordfish, ie misdirection.
for people not to look at your bilbil, show cleavage HAHAHAHA!
34. What kept you sane?
replaying happy dumaguete days in my head. and music.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
wala naman.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
spiritual boycott in burma -- monks refusing to accept alms from junta cronies. winner! no nirvana for you, general.
37. Who did you miss?
you. everyday.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Patrick! I heart him all the more because he saw sakal, sakali, saklolo hahahaha!
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
it is true what ammu said.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
There's a place I dream about
Where the sun never goes out.
And the sky is deep and blue.
Won't you take me there with you.
Ohhh, we can begin again.
Shed our skin, let the sun shine in.
At the edge of the ocean
We can start over again.
-Edge of the Ocean, Ivy
okay
now, sustain :)
---
I usually do this pre-Christas but (insert excuse here) so I'm doing it now :p
1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Have dinner with myself in PUBLIC.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
See previous post.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Ging, Cla, Audrey :)
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Pato.
5. What countries did you visit?
Divisoria :p parang India din sya.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
sleep!
7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Apr 15 - hello, dolphins! ang dami nyo!
June 10 - my bebidog died
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
weeding
9. What was your biggest failure?
weeding
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
carpal tunnel of love! hahaha kidding!
nothing major. flu mga 4 times this year, fever, food poisoning hahaha
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Sabel!
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
mine. i can see now in black and white.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
ay nako. wag na. stalker yun eh. fan ko :p
14. Where did most of your money go?
i don't know.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
the dolphins. really. it was raining when we headed out to the sandbar and there was no sun so i was kind of resigned na but i'm favoured (hahahaha) so yun. yay!
and i'm forever thankful.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
a lot of old songs
Last Good Day of the Year - Cousteau
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? always happier
ii. thinner or fatter? same i guess. i maintained my fatness hahahaha
iii. richer or poorer? poorer but eh ano :p
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
rest and eat healthy
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
smoke.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i ate, saw friends and then slept because i had work in the evening.
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
yes, with dumaguete :)
23. How many one-night stands?
nuninu
n/a HAHAHAHAHA
24. What was your favorite TV program?
kitchen confidential, gossip girl, jake in progress
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope
26. What was the best book you read?
6 keys to buddhist living
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
ATB, 4 strings
28. What did you want and got?
vacation and promotion
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
shrek 3 hahaha
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i was late for a surprise birthday dinner hahaha i turned 30.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
um, 4 weeks in sardinia :p
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
swordfish, ie misdirection.
for people not to look at your bilbil, show cleavage HAHAHAHA!
34. What kept you sane?
replaying happy dumaguete days in my head. and music.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
wala naman.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
spiritual boycott in burma -- monks refusing to accept alms from junta cronies. winner! no nirvana for you, general.
37. Who did you miss?
you. everyday.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Patrick! I heart him all the more because he saw sakal, sakali, saklolo hahahaha!
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
it is true what ammu said.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
There's a place I dream about
Where the sun never goes out.
And the sky is deep and blue.
Won't you take me there with you.
Ohhh, we can begin again.
Shed our skin, let the sun shine in.
At the edge of the ocean
We can start over again.
-Edge of the Ocean, Ivy
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